Let's Get Revamped

Hey guys, long time no post. It's been a hectic last couple weeks in the world as a university student. I went through my second quarter finals and nearly just died. I've been exhausted and tired and recovering. But that's only one reason for my lack of posts.

The other reason is because I've been deciding on whether or not to make a website. After much deliberation I've decided to go for it. I made a trial account on squarespace and I'm really liking it so far. It's design-easy and navigable.

So within two weeks, this blog will cease to exist, but I'll be out there on my own website!

I've always wanted a website and I'm finally going to have one.

I wish i can make this post longer but alas I have nothing more to say.

I'll be back with a new website.

Stay Whimsical,
Bianca

First Tattoo Experience

For a long time, probably since I was 15, I have wanted a tattoo. I went years with the anticipation that once I got to college and received financial aid, I would use some of it to get my first tattoo. At the time, it was the beginning of my senior year and I was obsessed with getting three birds around my hip bone area. Those three birds would represent my mom, dad and brother...but shh, don't tell them that. I wanted that tattoo for a while, but in my head I didn't want that tattoo unless I was skinny. Yeah, how terrible right? Now, I'm still thinking about that tattoo but it would be one of the last ones I get, if I do. After that, I thought about my favorite artist and song and how I would love to get something tattooed. Ed Sheeran's Give Me Love is my all time favorite song and Ed, himself, is my all time favorite artist. So that's when I decided to get the words 'give me love' tattooed on my ribs. My mind was set and nothing was stopping me.

I applied for financial aid, got accepted into college and moved into an apartment in September and received financial aid. I was all set and ready to go, so why didn't I go? I put the tattoo idea in the back of my mind for a few months because, well, I was scared. It's so nerve-wracking, to be honest. I wasn't scared of it being permanent, I really wasn't. It was the thought of the pain. Yeah, I'm afraid of pain and it took me six months to finally get over it.

One weekend, I decided to go for it. I would be like, fuck it let's do this shit. But then I thought about it, again, and having the mere thought of a needle inking my ribs scared the crap out of me. I've been told that the ribs are one of the most painful places to get a tattoo, and I knew that but I brushed it off with a (insert George Lopez voice) "I got this." When I finally decided to get it, I chickened out. I did not want to feel the needle inking my skin in the place where it was supposed to hurt the most. 

But I still wanted a tattoo, desperately, so I went with one of my other options: a semi-colon.

So, here I am today, telling my readers (do I have readers?) that I, Bianca, finally got a tattoo.

It all started on a Sunday night, where my roommate and I got in her car and took off to Orange. I'll be honest when I say I didn't do extensive research. I just went on Yelp and looked through different places around the OC. At first, I wanted to get my tattoo at Shamrock in LA, but they have a $100 minimum and I only wanted to get it there if it meant my chances of....well, never mind that's a different story. So I came across Fine Tattoo Work  and I looked through their reviews and it seemed safe enough. So my roommate were off.

Picture taken from website, finetattoowork.com

The area it was in wasn't something you'd expect. It was in the middle of a neighborhood and it was quiet, safe. I quite liked it. Upon entering, you can see the tattoo artists working and almost immediately a woman comes up and asks me questions and you can tell it's a very friendly atmosphere. It's also very clean and that's when I let out a sigh of relief. I've learned that you have to go to a clean shop, otherwise you're screwed. So, kudos to me. So, I tell them what I want, and all that jazz and a guy, Michael, helps me out. He takes me to the back (Oh gosh, that just sounds wrong on so many levels) and my roommate, Lizeth, comes with me.

At this point, my heart is my stomach, beating so fast. Like I said, it isn't the permanent marking I'm going to get that scares me, it's the pain. But I suck it up and get on with it.

   

Now, the pain wasn't that bad. It was tolerable. Imagine having a cat scratch you, did you imagine it? Okay, now repeat that a hundred more times at least. Trust me, it isn't as bad as it sounds. Or I might just be used to cat scratches. A tattoo hurts like it would. A needle digging at your skin constantly. Michael, the tattoo artist, was really chill and cool. Didn't say much but I loved that because I don't like talking most of the time. Why do you think I have a blog? It takes away the pain of talking with writing. I'd say the anticipation of getting the tattoo is much more fun than having the tattoo itself. But now that makes me want more tattoos.

Onward to revealing the tattoo:

The reason I got a semi-colon is because I'm a writer. The real reason, and I'm only going to say this once because I always find going into a deep meaning embarrassing, is to remind me to keep going. A semi-colon represents, not the end of a sentence but a continuation. This is me, continuing on, no matter how fucked up my mind is. I'm extremely happy with my choice and I look at it, and smile and it still doesn't seem real. I love it so much and the placement is to die for. It makes it perfect for me to see it clearly. And that is my first tattoo experience. Now, on to save money and gather more courage for my next one in a year or so. 

Stay Whimsical,

Bianca

Let's Talk About || Adore

Photo Credit to IMDB

Adore

Release Date: September 6, 2013 (USA)

Director: Anne Fontaine

Starring: Namoi Watts, Robin Wright

MPAA Rating: R

Adapted from: The Grandmothers: Four Short Novels by Doris Lessing

Synopsis: Set in an Australian seaside town of otherworldly beauty and shot in lush 35mm Cinemascope, Adore establishes an aura of fable as it follows two womens plunge into uncharted waters. Watts and Wright fearlessly engage with both the physical and psychological components of the story, capturing the complex emotions and powerful desires driving their characters. Strong performances from relative newcomers Xavier Samuel (The Twilight Saga: Eclipse)and James Frecheville (Animal Kingdom) complement Watts and Wrights and add another layer of intricacy to the story. Under the precise gaze of Fontaines camera, Adore, radiates with intoxicating sensuality while exploring the intricacies of love, family, morality, and passion. - AdoreMovie.com

Okay, how do I begin? Now, this is not a review but more of a rant from the likes of 'what the hell did I just watch.' In case the synopsis of the movie didn't let you understand, the movie centers around two women, best friends since children and their lives surrounding their sons. The two women end up falling in love with each other's sons.

I'm just - I have no words, honestly. It was a very good movie, in my opinion but I'm just trying to wrap my head around the idea of hooking up with your best friend's son. The mothers didn't act like mothers in this movie, plus, one of the moms (Naomi Watts) looked like a teenager herself!

Okay, now that I've calmed down I can say that I did truly like this movie. It was heart-warming and tragic at the same time. Watts and Wright couldn't help but succumb to their desires and their sons just really loved them. I can't make this into a proper review, hell, this is just me ranting about a movie I have no words for it, to be honest.

The cinematography was beautiful, the location was beautiful and the script was beautiful. It was a sensual and powerful and it essentially had a great meaning. Do what makes you happy. Be comfortable with yourself and choices because it doesn't matter what anyone thinks. That's what I got out of it.

I highly recommend watching this movie, but careful, NSFW.

Stay Whimsical,
Bianca

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Let's Talk About || Divergent

March 21, 2014. Many have been waiting, and it’s finally here. Fans of the book, Divergent by Veronica Roth are both thrilled and nervous for the upcoming cinematic experience. In honor of the book to movie premiere, why don’t we take a look back at the novel that made such a huge impact on many people?

Divergent by Veronica Roth

Release Date: May 3, 2011
Publisher: Katherine Tegan Books
Pages: 487
Format: Paperback

One choice decides your friends. One choice defines your beliefs. One Choice determines your loyalties – forever. One choice CAN TRANSFORM YOU.

Divergent tells the story of the future, where people are split into factions based on their personalities. Abnegation, Candor, Dauntless, Amity and Erudite. There is an aptitude test you take once you reach the age of sixteen that determines which faction you end up in, but Beatrice ‘Tris’ Prior is told that she is Divergent – someone who does not fit into any faction. They ultimately can’t control her.

This book kept me up all night. It was such a thrilling and nerve-wracking read that made me want to jump of a roof, just like Tris. This book is filled with heart stopping events page after page that left me breathless. Veronica Roth is an incredible author, and her words and descriptions were just hauntingly mesmerizing. Divergent is a book that you can’t help but feel for the characters. Each character is deeply developed and you feel everything they are feeling from the pain, the fear and even their happiness. You become connected and you start understanding

I loved Tris because she is such a raw character. There were many scenes where she made me laugh, and where I wanted to slap her for thinking such things. Her romantic feelings for Four made me giddy and scream at the same time. There were so many instances where he was blatantly showing her how he felt but she could not realize it. This book was just a mixture of pain, suffering, and absolute amazing-ness. If you have no read Divergent, I suggest you go read it before seeing the movie.

Now that I am caught up with the book, I just hope and pray the movie does it justice. I am one of those book freaks that cannot stand when a movie butchers a book but I have high hopes for this one. The cast is golden, and even though I would never expect Shailene Woodly to play Tris I am excited to see how well she does.

I recommend this book 100%, no questions asked. It was an amazing book and I cannot formulate any other words. Now, I am off to read the rest of the series, but I’ll be back with reviews for books 2 and 3 in the series, Insurgent and Allegiant.

You can also see this review over at hercampus.com.

Stay Whimsical,
Bianca

Holly Golightly

Audrey Hepburn as "Holly Golightly" in Breakfast at Tiffany's

Lately, since I don't sleep anymore, I find random movies and television shows on Netflix and just binge watch for hours on end. Sure, I lose sleep but I think it's worth it when it comes to watching all kinds things. (What great descriptive words, Bianca) .

But I think I've found my newest obsession. It was when I finally gave in, that I decided to watch Breakfast at Tiffany's. For some reason, I forbade myself from watching anything with Audrey Hepburn. I'm not entirely sure why, maybe because I didn't want to be like every other person. Or maybe I was just really lazy to watch an old movie. Yeah, I'm that person. One night, though, I said, "What the hell." There I sat, at one in the morning, watching Breakfast at Tiffany's. And I fell in love. I don't know what it was, but I was sucked into it from the very beginning. I was now wishing I lived in New York during the sixties, in a small apartment just like Holly Golightly. She was just so fabulous, and despite her clear problems, I wanted to be her. 

It wasn't just the character Holly Golightly, Audrey Hepburn herself was just amazing. After watching Breakfast at Tiffany's, I binge watched many of her other movies. One of my favorites would have to be Roman Holiday. It's about a princess who wants to have freedom and fun. 

Audrey Hepburn was such a cute and enigmatic person, and her charisma was personified within the characters she played. She was small, and beautiful and I am sad that I didn't realize this sooner. I'm now going to watch Breakfast at Tiffany's over and over and over again until I get sick of it. This movie has made me want to be just as fashionable as Holly, with the black ensembles, big hats and pearl necklaces. I might be a tad bit pretentious after this, but dahlings, what did you expect? 

Can I just be Holly Golightly now?

Stay Whimsical,

Bianca

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Storybook Endings

Not everything or everyone can have a storybook ending, though life would be easier if there was. We'd know exactly what would happen in the future, because every storybook ends happily. That's why when we were kids, we'd be eager to find a story that began with Once upon a time... and ended with Happily ever after. Because back then, everything was easier, everything didn't come at you at once and that was the time when you believed.

When we were kids we believed in the Tooth Fairy, the Easter Bunny, Santa Claus (heck, I still do, shh), even Prince Charming. It was easier to believe in it because it was fun. Why wouldn't you believe in something that was fun? It made life easier when you believed that you would be happy in the future. It was easier to lie to the child then ruin their expectations of the future ahead. If I had the chance to go back in time and tell my younger self that my future isn't as bright as I thought it would be, I'd still lie to her. I would have her cherish the happiness and laughable moments if it meant that it kept her going, evidently to the end.

We all dream of having that fairy tale ending come true, where prince and princess fall in love and get married, where the castle is now considered a home and maids and butlers are serving to your every need. It's a dream that can never become reality (unless your Kate, then four for you girl).

Sometimes, it isn't even about Prince Charming but something deeper. Purity, Integrity, Happiness.

After all, we do go through challenges and obstacles in life just to get a lick of happiness. Because being truly happy is rare, almost as rare as a unicorn and a virgin. I want to meet someone who can say they're happy. One hundred percent, truly and completely happy. Like I said, it's rare and I know that I'll never be truly happy. But, hey, I'm only 18 so what would I know? I mean, it could all just be teen angst. But one day, I'll love to have my own Happily Ever After. Maybe I haven't even had my Once Upon a Time, yet.

Stay Whimsical,
Bianca

Alexander Benjamin Scott

(Not my photo. Credit to owner)

The Beginning

Alexander Benjamin Scott was born on January 1, New Years Day, in New York City. His mother Tasha Scott - now James - and his father Benjamin Scott were both part of a big charitable organization called Scotts’ Charities where they raised money for many different charities and non-profit organizations. They were one of the top families and socialites in the Upper East Side. Alex had a regular childhood, or as regular as you can get with different nannies every so often and vacations at The Hamptons. Alex was a spoiled kid, but never a brat, his father made sure of that. At the tender age of 5, while he and his mom were waiting for his dad outside of a hotel in Brooklyn (they had a gala and since it was Alex’s birthday, they brought him along) a truck driver, obviously drunk, ran a red light and smashed into his father’s car across the street from the hotel. Alex witnessed the whole thing and it has haunted him ever since then. Ever since that day, his mother had put him him in therapy where he was diagnosed with PTSD and Panic Disorder. When Alex was 7, Tasha remarried, and then again at 9, and then again at 10. At the age of 13, right before the 8th grade, his mother married, yet again, and shipped him off to Center Hill, Florida, to live with his Aunt and Uncle. Now, they weren’t so friendly. His Uncle George was her mom’s brother and never agreed with the socialite ways. In his mind, Alex was corrupt and would sometimes smack one or two times a means of punishment. As he got older, the beatings got worse but it only happened every so often. By now, Alex was used to it and he now knew that whenever George and is Aunt Clara were fighting to stay as far away as possible.

The Middle

Now 18, and a senior at Lanewood High School, there isn’t much to be said about Aelx Scott. His tormented past still haunts him, but he covers it up with trying to be nice and flirty (though, half the time he doesn’t realize he’s flirting). His panic attacks are seldom, now with medication but they don’t stop the nightmares. Alex is very light-hearted and sweet, unless provoked then he could be considered a weak asshole, which usually happens with his uncle. It’s the perfect façade, Alex thinks. Seeing as no one would suspect abuse in a sweet and charming boy.

He loves film, photography, reading and writing. His favorite movie is Back to the Future, his favorite book is Catcher in the Rye and his favorite song is Hal of Fame by The Script, which is also his favorite band. He loves anything Harry Potter and Doctor Who. You could say he’s sort of a dork. He’s 6’0” with long legs that sometimes seem to have a mind of their own.

The End

To be written.

I'm not sure where this came from. Lies, I know where this came from but I just wanted to write a biography of a boy who I hope will someday have all his wishes and dreams come true and will hopefully get out of that hellhole he calls home.

Stay Lovely,
Bianca